A Brand New Day

It's Tuesday morning, April 26, 2011, 9:45 a.m. A brand new day.

I stepped on the scale first thing this morning -- 234.5 pounds. That was a bit of a shocker. I hover between 220 and 225, ten more pounds to lose than I had figured. I'm OK with it, as this will be the last time I lose them! (It will be.)

No pictures or measurements. I'll get a picture today. But I may not post it today.

Did the morning school carpool thing and headed off to Tree City to pick up my juices. The cost for the cleanse is $40 per day, so I took care of that. I brought my own cooler with me, so as my juices were being packed up for me to take, I downed my wheat grass shot. It was actually OK. Definitely not like the tequila I had this past weekend, but not an awful thing either.

The juices are in 16 oz. Mason jars, labeled in order for me to drink. The fresh fruits and veggies make for some very bright colored drinks. As of now, I have finished #1, the very green and very veggie Vitariffic. The ginger and pear and lemon help tremendously with the flavor, it wasn't awful to drink, but as I got closer and closer to the bottom of my glass I was looking forward to the end! I have another one of those for later.

I've started #2, the Grapefruit Mint. What a nice change! I could definitely smell the mint as I opened up the jar, and I don't so much taste the mint as smell the mint. This one is no problem.

I've already had 16 oz. of water, and will probably empty my water bottle before I finish this juice.

When I picked up my juices, I was also told that I might get the afternoon headache from not eating food, but probably only today. I had forgotten about that.

The weather is kinda iffy, we had some storms yesterday and last night, so while I need to take the dogs for a walk, I really don't want to be caught up in some weather. And I'm feeling waterlogged, so I may just stay close to home for today. The after school runaround awaits me later today. And I really don't want to get that potential headache.

Good things are happening!

The Start

At 44, I think my life is fairly good. I am blessed and lucky to be able to say that and mean it.

But there are things I would change if I could.

I suspect my daughter has some version of ADHD and that it is getting worse. I am trying to help her and it is very hard to do.

My son is 16 and will soon be looking at colleges to start the next phase of his life. We raise our children to give them wings, right? But couldn't I just have him for another ten years or so?

I wish I was of more help to my husband with his job. He does a fabulous job a providing for his family and I support him 100%. But I can't take away the stress he feels and I wish I could ease it somehow.

So that leaves me. There are things I can do, things about myself, that I can control and change and that might leave me in a better spot to help my family. It will require hard work and a different way of thinking. Some dedication and focus. Probably a visit to the doctor at some point. Maybe some tequila.

At this point I don't want to share this yet with anyone I know. I have to keep track of things, hence this blog will become my journal. I want to work on making forward progress just by myself. If I can start it by myself, and get going by myself, then that is the hard part, the first step. And even slow motion is motion. So today I start Moving in the Right Direction.